Grappling

I kept refreshing my email to hear from you last night. I cried myself to sleep this morning. I grappled with the thought of how can you be so cruel to me? I wondered why I don’t even deserve a word of thanks.

After so much waiting, ‘many thanks’ appeared. Is that it ? Are you going to really avoid me? Can you just conveniently erase me off your life? You have no time for me at all? The person who did Everything that you need for the entire decade selflessly ?

You said you are busy. Are you that busy? Are they all so worthy of your attention? I think you are better off alone. You don’t deserve me at all. Not a single bit.

Let it go. Let it go. Don’t hold it back anymore. I can be like Elsa. I will be strong. I think I can find others to love me. Even if they love me less, it won’t be as meagre as yours.

I will live my life separately then. If you rather not hear from me, then let it be. It’s your loss, not mine. Get it farking straight. 😖